Do you tend to overthink every single little or big thing in your life? Do you become paralyzed trying to decide what kind of shampoo to buy or how to confront someone you have had a falling out with or whether you should order pad thai or pad see ew? Whether the situation is important on not, does your brain go into overdrive in every single situation you find yourself in? If this sounds like you, here are some posts that will hit close to home.
Why is it that a simple "ding dong" can make you hit the floor? Sure you just ordered some take out Thai food, (you decided on the pad thai) but that could be a murderer out there! Will you risk your life to see if your food is here? Probably, but you will overthink it all the way to the door.
You spend your entire day absolutely exhausted and dreaming about falling into your bed. Then when you finally get into bed and hope that you can get some shut eye, the brain starts working into overdrive. You think about everything from what you should have said to that girl in 1st grade when she called you a freak to the health insurance plan you should sign up for during open enrollment.
Do your friends and family think that you are full of doom or gloom? Are you always jumping to conclusions and expecting the worst care scenario? You know what thy say, "don't make an ass out of me and you." No that's not right. It's "assuming makes you look like an ass." Something like that.
"Can I ask you something" quickly turns into a horrible scenario. "Can I ask you something? Why are you stupid?" or "Can I ask you something? Why did you think you would be fit for this job? You're fired." Or "Can I ask you something? How would you feel if I dumped you right now?" You know, things like that.
Does it feel like your brain has a hamster on a wheel inside of it that won't stop running? You close your eyes and that little guy is still going. You go to yoga, still going. You try to meditate, still there. When does the furry thing just pass out and die already? Watch, now PETA is going to come after me for that statement.
You know what you would say if you had the chance to confront the person. You've typed it out, practiced with friends and rehearsed alone in the mirror many times. Then the time comes and the other person isn't sticking to the script!!!???? This isn't an improv class, buddy!
In My Head: How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today? How are you today?
When I Open My Mouth: Um, err, some day outside, huh? Bye.
If I didn't overanalyze a situation, I would find myself overanalyzing why I wasn't overanalyzing it anyway. Is my brain not working correctly? Am I dead? Did I have a stroke? WHY AM I NOT OVERANALYZING EVERYTHING THAT I COULD BE OVERANALYZING!??!?!
It's called "being in the smart seats." When someone else makes a flub, it's easy to sit in the smart seats and see the whole picture and see that it is not that big of a deal. When it's you that makes the mistake, you think that you deserve to die. Why is this happening? I want two tickets for the smart seats, please!
And sometimes you know how ridiculous you are being but still can't do anything to control it. It's like you are paralyzed and can't stop your brain from exploding. This is where therapy comes in. Thank God for therapy. Except doesn't it seem like your therapist is judging you sometimes? She hates you right?
Here is that judgmental therapist again. Now it's time to spiral into how much she is judging you and why she is judging you and when she is and is she telling her friends what you tell her and maybe you are a terrible person and WHY AM I PAYING HER TO MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY!?!??! That's it, I quit!
Maybe if we turned our brains off, we would follow our heart. Maybe if we followed our heart, we'd be happy. Maybe if we are happy, we wouldn't be overthinking everything. Maybe if we weren't overthinking everything, we'd be happy. Now THAT is something to think about.